closing out month

bored as hell so i'll share some thoughts.

summer is flowing pretty well right now. i haven't done much and have just been enjoying sitting on my ass/etc. kindve depressing though because my friends are either in lincoln or whatever.

i think it's a pretty clear glimpse of whats to come for me, at least socially. most of my friends will either be out of town, working, or back in school. it's pretty depressing, at least for me, someone who doesn't really have a definitive future. i'm not good enough to play poker for a living (or at least don't have enough dedication) and my degree (history) is a joke. hopefully i can teach and maybe poker can give me a nice foothold into the 'real world' (ie. allow me to buy a house or something).

my friend told me that i'm about to enter a lonely time, at least with regards to this profession. i'll maintain a semi pro 'job' with poker for as long as i can, at least by playing on the side. each year i've played less and less (last year i played literally less than an hour a day, fucking pathetic). i'll ride it for as long as i can. really though, i don't know what life will bring. friends will move on, move to other places...get married, find coworker friends, life moves on.

i've already sortve told myself that a cubicle job 9-5 isn't for me. this could be a product of many things (as ive said in the past), namely, already being super lazy from poker playing. i know there was discussion earlier in the HSNL with regards to how beneficial poker really was...i can see both arguments. on one hand, we've definitely accomplished alot with regards to finances in our life. even 50NL players can make a good amount monthly, and have a nice $15-$20+ an hour multitabling. thats just not something you can do often in college. the money comes fairly easy (relative to the real world, although incredibly stressful).

on the other hand, we become desensitized to many things...including the value of hard work. now, thats not to say that poker isn't hard work because it most definitely is...anyone who says differently, well...i guess just ask someone 'if its so easy why dont you try?'. i was more referring to 'hard work' in a real world sense though...working a full 9-5 40 hours a week...the very idea just makes me shudder. i'm not sure if othersfeel the same either, could just be me. but this mentality is very common (at least in my experience) with other poker players.

i'd like to do something i enjoy. i was thinking about doing spelunking (sp?), or cave diving. being a cave guide would be pretty cool too.

scuba instructor is a long path as well, but definitely seems cool. money doesn't seem fantastic but meh.

i think pulling an adsman would be pretty adventureous. for those who haven't read his story-

HERE READ IT ...its definitely inspiring. people too often are set on one rigid path, one set road that they are unwilling to change...something along the lines of "well, shit, i guess i have this degree in xx and now i'm just going to work this shitty office job for the rest of my life FML"...and this isn't me hating on office jobs. sure, if you want to do that, by all means, googogogo...to each his own!

i just see so many people do what their parents/grandparents/friends/relatives/etc tell them what to do...and they are just so set on this path that they haven't even set some time to think for themselves.

i personally am a pretty shitty student. i don't work hard, i don't go to class, i don't take notes, and i don't study. in summary, i'm lazy. i wrote a short essay on this subject, bluntly telling my teacher that i could pretty much care less what he gave me (in tems of grading). here it is if anyone is interested in reading the thing (pretty idiotic and dumb, but still its related to this subject(s) that ive been discussing)-

Here it is, friend is hosting it

(also check out handcrawler.com, cool site to grab hands from/situations/etc). cool site.

anyways, thats enough of that emo bit. i know that life is changing, i know that people move on. just depressing that it's coming upon me.

pokerwise, i'm pretty content with how i did this month. probably like $3k for like 10k-12k hands...mostly 1/2. i mean, its pretty marginal but whatever. i ran like complete ass two days ago and lost a ton of buyins, just playing bad and getting range gayed.

i still have to figure out what we're doing in thailand. our path, activities, etc are still unknown and we have to figure it out.

anyways, ive written too much already. sorry to waste your time. hope everyone had a good may and bring on june.

bored as shit so UF football/other stuff

man i'm bored as all hell right now...all friends are in lincoln right now so i've just been a fuckin bum today. i should have really gone to the gym or something/done something productive but instead i decided to just sit on my ass.

i suppose that is one of the joys of summer... sitting on your ass and enjoying free time. this is a time that is slowly slipping away for many of us, as many of my friends are preparing to go into the real world where summers are nonexistent. i still have to do that last semester unfortunately and still have a year or two yet before a job is there.

I plan on playing poker as long as I can. I've already realized I don't have it in me to really grind out shpanko style every month, that much is clear. I've always been content with playing like 10k hands or so a month, meh.

I'm more happy with the opportunities that poker has given me. Happiness is something I've always strived for...I don't really care as much about the money, but that could be because either a) I have enough of it for now, at least in my current situation or b) I haven't felt the real grind of true expenses like house/etc. I'm sure things would be different if I never played and never made any money.

here is a good post by martox that pretty much voices my sentiments. I fully agree that people should open up, strive to find new activites that bring happiness and purpose. We as poker players are often confined to a pretty set/boring schedule (sit around, watch porn, play a few hours of poker, rinse watch repeat). Finding new hobbies and activites can not only help your poker playing but your general happiness.

For me, I've found rock climbing to be a great outlet. I don't lift as much anymore (in terms of frequency), but when I was in the prime of my rock climbing, I could lift as much or more as I was previously. Fantastic exercise and loads of fun...I haven't found a real consistent place to climb in Omaha yet so blah.

I'd like to get better at cooking...I'm pretty horrid right now, and I fail in alot of areas. I think cooking would be pretty great for alot of reasons, other than me just loving food in general. Scuba diving is another hobby that I've gotten into (recently certified, yay), and I'm hoping that I'll be able to go to different places and see some cool dive sites.

I have no idea what this future holds for me. Hobbies and stuff we like change all the time. I've said this stuff many many times (for anyone reading this pathetic blog), I'm not preachy- I just think that people waste so much opportunity to do other stuff (re- poker players). We're all young, rich (relative), and have a ton of opportunity to do so much.

Anyways, I'm bored as all hell. Football season is about 2 months or so away and I can't wait. I'm actually watching the TTU/Ole miss game now, pretty great game.

UF should look pretty solid this year...I don't want to hold expectations ridiculously high (USC style) but I think that all the tools are in place for at least a BCS bowl...anything less than that will be tremendously disappointing...I would NOT be tremendously surprised if UF played for another national title either. The Defense will be among the best in the nation, with everyone returning. The D alone will give UF a chance in most every game.

UF still misses one piece on D- a line busting DT. The DEs are fantastic in Dunlap and Cunningham (both will probably play in the NFL next year, barring something disastrous). But two UF DTs have transferred in the off season, both five star rivals recruits. Ugh...Our current starters have been serviceable and underrated (and don't get me wrong, I'm happy with their performances)...but we have yet to see someone like a Ray Mcdonald or Marcus Thomas here.

I think the biggest challenge for UF is LSU. I wouldn't be surprised if someone crept up on us either, someone like Georgia. While the UGA/UF series has been a monumental joke the last 15 years (UF has owned UGA the past decade), 2007 was a nice example of a team sortve 'creeping up' on UF...UGA got smeared by UTenn that year and noone really gave them a chance.

With that said, at Death Valley in a night game with almost 100,000 drunk cajuns doesn't sound very appealing to me. LSU has recruited as well as anyone the past 4 years and they should see alot of improvement from last year. Jefferson looked pretty promising in that last game vs. GTech. LSUs defense was pretty fucking pathetic last year, but I think youth and a bad DC (gone now, Chavis is there now) were two big factors.

The obvious contenders next year are still there. UT/tOSU/OU/USC/UF/etc. I think that there will be some surprise teams this year, as always.

I'm going to say that Arky improves a ton...I'm going to also say that Cal comes back to national prominence and the same with UMiami. We'll see how these three teams go next season, this prediction could be a major bust. I guess neither of those teams are totally off the national radar but meh.

Ugh, getting hungry...my diet has been a pretty big fail lately. I'm too lazy to cook myself so I've been going out. While I'm not really eating mcdonalds when I go out, it's still probably less than optimal. Huhot, culvers (pretty bad for you), sandwhiches from hyvee, ugh.

Anyways, gl. hope noone is as bored as I am.

live poker lol god i suck

k so i decided to play live again. BIG ****ING MISTAKE DAVE

live roll is a ****ing joke, as stated earlier. im going to have to withdraw from bank acct to replenish my depleted roll. oh well, at least i can claim some losses on poker winnings/not pay as much taxes!!!

anyways, i decide to play 1/3. i build my stack off early , win a few smallish pots.

i lose 50bbs to some retard wearing an eastern carolina hoodie who l/c pf with 65o and flops 354ss (i had TT and just raised him all in). he slowly donates the rest away while blabbering about how he lost a $900 pot w/ KK vs. AA. news flash- if you get in KK pf w/ like almost 200bbs live , you're ****ed.

i get bored as ****...start to bluff. some meth hag raises utg, i call Q9o otb.

flop KT4 she c/c my bet. turn 8 she c/c again. after i bet the turn i'm like hmm well whatever time to 3-barrel i guess...i'm bored as **** anyways. river is an A and she checks. this braindead whore would probably c/c QJ all the way but whatever...i should have just shipped it but i stupidly bet like $80 instead...she tanks forever and calls KJ, hi fiving some *** next to her when i muck.

i'm bored as **** by this time. eastern carolina minraises utg, this has indicated Axs/pp/sc about 90% of the time (when he shows this down...he miniraises frequently). i rr A9o, meth hag cold calls, eastern carolina folds. flop Q77ss i bet 1/2 pot, she miniraises, i fold, she shows AQ and says "I HAD TA CAWL YUK YUK". god i hope she chokes on a big black dick.

a literal retard sat down at my table, and since it's not nice to make fun of them i'll hold myself. i m not sure what disorder he had but something wasn't right..he kept spazzing out, and twitching.

so i'm like down a few hundo at htis point and im just like **** this **** im going to go play at the 2/5. normally id like to exercise some bankroll management and before, the 2/5 game was megafull...but the night has died down and i notice that they are short handed. the game looks pretty good, a bunchve old retards, a few azns.

i sit and everyone has big stacks, we're short handed, and i'm sitting with a bunchve tards. i'm like



too bad i was naive.

right off the bat i get KJhh some tightwad young gun dbag raises, few call, i call. flop Q94 i check, some crazy jap bets, i c/r. he tanks and folds.

very next hand some hillbilly opens btn, i 3-bet QQ. he has like $150 back, he calls. flop KA9r i c/f when he jams, he shows AK and says "i got lucky". i told him he could have jammed pf and taken the rest of my money.

crazy azns sit both to my left. one was actually good, definitely in alot of ways that cant really be quantified by online standards. live players generally do some pretty bad fundamental ****, but it definitely works in a live setting.

crazy viet to my direct left starts chatting about how crazy loose i am. i say i'm on a heater...he 3-bets my UTG open with 22, i fold A2ss. lol...

not a tremendous amount of 'interesting' hands. mainly just me splashing around.

i open 34 in co, crazy viet calls otb. flop A65r, i bet, he calls. turn 3, i bet again, he calls. i could have c/c-ed i suppose but meh. river J, i check, he bets like $75 into $180, i'm like ugh...hmmm...he chats about how much i'll call...then i fold, he proudly shows 78. i knock the table and maybe second guess myself.

i witness a hand where its a limped pot. (lol)...flop 963...theres a bet, call, shorty c/jams...the crazy viet calls the shove, and the cold caller makes it $130 on top. crazy viet tanks and calls the $130..turn is 2, crazy viet insta bets $200 (nearly putting the cold caller ai), the cold caller calls with a set, river bricks...crazy viet shows Q4 and the shorty has A8 (other guy had a set).

by this time we're like 5 handed. i can't do a ton w/ crazy viet behind me...at least not w/o cards. we don't play much longer...the solid nittish young dude realizes he can't play in this game when he gets owned by the viet...i open 77, viet calls, young dude squeezes really small (i opened $15, viet called, young dude made it $50), we both call.

flop AQ8dd im pretty much done, young dude cks, i ck, viet cks

turn Q we both check to viet, who bets, young dude calls...i assume w/ some Ax or something...i fold pretty quick.

river T young dude cks, viet bets like $150 instantly, young dude folds and viet shows T9. young dude says one more round and then leaves.

donky shorty from other Q4/A8 hand is only one left, along w/ me and the crazy viet. i ask donky shorty if he wants to flip for his remaining $80...he says no. it took him ****ing 5 minutes to understand wtf i was trying to say to begin with, ****ing moron lol.

anyways, my friend who i went w/ made like $500. i ended down a few hundred on the night, pretty bad. i'm getting pretty cold cards overall, not really giving me much to work with. if i played longer i'm sure i could do better, but we'll see. i'm prob just going to have to withdraw some $ to feel more comfortable. lol live poker and LOL at me for sucking dick.

anyways, i saw three movies today...just stayed in a theater and watched angels and demons, wolverine, and terminator: salvation.

all were pretty average, nothing special, nothing horrendous. each were decent in its own manner, probably all worth a watch at one point or another (though i'd probably only watch all once). meh.

scuba certified!

finally did my four open water dives for scuba diving out in kearney, NE. the lake itself was pretty ghetto but serviceable for what we were trying to do. it went really well and i had a great time diving, even if it was for only 25 feet deep or whatever.

no pics atm, but my partner took some photos...not digital, but when he sends them to me i can get them up.

i'm pretty happy with the whole process. scuba diving was great fun, and i can only imagine what it's going to be like in real dive spots. hopefully i can get certified in advanced dive (taking that next semester) and dive in other spots worldwide. i've read that thailand has some great dive spots (also great climbing spots too) so i'm looking forward to that.

on the same note of fitness/activity, my diet and exercise has been pretty horrible lately. i think it's a lack of climbing wall/lack of a familiar gym that is hampering me. though i plan on getting back into exercising (running/swimming/maaaaaaaaybe lifting) as my opportunity dwindles. both my spanish class as well as my seattle trip are coming up within the next few weeks here, so my little month of paradise is slipping away...

though i'm in lincoln now, so going to the wall later. also have to finish my house shopping, we're figuring out places to live next year. we've decided we're probagbly going to live in the bottoms, a ghetto area close to campus. i'll probably get mugged and rapped mulitple times.

LIVE LOL

live TR-

online hasnt been going the greatest so i decided to play live poker. my offline roll is just a ****ing joke too, i only have like 1700...i've ran pretty horrendous the last few times i played live and i'm probably down like 3k. whatever.

anyways, decided to play 1/3NL. the casino had a few games running. i waited probably like 20 minutes.

i sat. typical live retards sitting, noone looked very competent.

first few hands i have nothing. i start to notice a black dude that looks like stringer bell-



is sitting in the 10 seat. he's in every hand and either limping or raising. about 4 hands in i get QQ. utg raises (utg seems like a 40 year old retard), stringer bell miniraises. im like wtf...i guess whatever, make it $100 (you can only buyin $200 in this game). stringer bell mulls and says "**** it im all in" and has KK. i lose. maybe misplayed but whatever...there were a few decent stacks at the table and i hoped i could get a quick double up bc deep w/ live tards = LOL. stringer had like $120 or something so whatever. i rebuy.

anyways, i dont really get much for the next hour or so. get QQ, raise, one call, he c/c Jxx and c/f turn. etc. i lose some medium pots and am stuck about $200 total.

huge dude who has been missing for a while sits down on his fat huge stack. this guy's a super loose lagtard and is in nearly every pot. the guy next to him is both sucking him off and getting extra bitter at the same time, a hilarious dichotomy of retardation. the guy seems to have some bitter vendetta against the lagtard. anyways, i open KJ after a limper, lagtard and vendetta both call, a few others call.

flop: J 5 6r

all check, i check to lagtard who is going to bet. i thought this was a nice form of pot control as well as extracting value. lagtard bets like $22 into $60. vendetta makes it $60 (with $220 effective). i fold, all else fold.

lagtard mulls it over and makes it $100. (miniraises back). vendetta instajams and lagtard thinks for a while. (i'm laughing heavily inside). lagtard shows a J and folds, vendetta proudly shows KQo and says "NOTHING". i say "bold aggressive move" and he cackles.

i get 98 and overlimp after a ton of limps. flop 936, all check to me otb, i bet. 2 callers.

turn: 7 (9367) ...i'm like jizzing myself at this point. sb checks to me (sb was vendetta from other hand), other dude checks, i bet, sb calls, other folds.

river 5, he donks $60 into me...i just ship it and hope he has like 4x or something...he folds and says "two pair no good huh"

i later overlimp AJ after a bunch, flop J73r. stringer bell bets $5, other calls, i raise to $20, both call. turn 3, stringer bets $20, other folds, i call. river 8, he checks, i bet smallish, he calls and is upset that i have TOP TOP.



so i have like $550 or something after building up, getting medium pots. nice little recovery, up about $150 or so.

then a ****ing hilarious hand happens.

I overlimp K3 after a bunch.

flop: Q83
all check to me, i bet, 2 calls. (one old guy who looks like -Agamemnon from troy)



and the other some other retard who has been limping a ton.

turn 3 both check, i bet large. valuetownnnn.

BOTH ****ING CALL

river K I JIZZ MYSELF



both check, im like ok one of these retards has a flush, i bet largeish. OLD GUY SNAP CALLS and says "I hafta call you", other guy JAMS. im like ugh well if you have 666 gg and snap call, old guy snap folds Qx.

other guy says "i just have a 3" and flips A3. i say "boat" and flip my cards-

I HAVE K ****ING 4!!!!! I MISREAD MY ****ING HAND WHAT A DONK

MOTHERFUKER. old guy starts cackling like a ****ing hyena, i laugh my ass off. other guy who just took the money from me looks confused as **** and shrugs. i say "tell cathy that the xbox you buy her is on me" and he laughs his ass off. orange, the village ****ing idiot at this retard table. great.

anyways, i dont really get much the rest of the night. pay off some nitty dude because i'm a ****ing payoffwizard with 88 on J9349 board lol and lose to AJ.

old agamenon is laughing his ass off throughout the night. he keeps referencing my hand and says "YOU BETTER DOUBLE CHECK YOUR CARDS AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA" i laugh my ass off as i bet/call against him with A7 on AT2 board and win vs. JJ. oh well at least i gave that old geezer something to laugh about. geezer said that he misread his hand last week and called a river bet w/ 9 high.

overall, lost $80 due to my ignorance. fun night. my friend won $190 though, so good for him. WHAT A ****ING RETARD I AM LOL

rant

man i'm so sick of running shitty in PLO. it's been ridiculous, the last few sessions. i know i should be more intune w/ the variance in this game but ugh, it can get sooo frustrating sometimes.

am i playing great? no. but i'm playing well enough to the point where i'm getting it in as a favorite in most cases (or slightly marginal dog i suppose). tbh, i'm not even sure why i started playing PLO to begin. on one hand, it's a great way to learn a new game, a new perspective for NLHE. on the other, it's a super super variance filled game that is frustrating as hell.

my results have still been solid, despite all this bitching. as i think i mightve mentioned before, something like +20 or whatever over 70k hands, most of it being 1/2.

i've played a decent amount of NLHE this month. it's a nice change of pace, taking 70/30s instead of 50/50s all day. PLO games in general are much softer than NLHE (typically), but these skill advantages are offset by the increased equity most random opponents have at any given time. you just see some ridiculous shit in PLO and while it can be very very funny, it's also fucking frustrating when people get there.

i've also decided that i don't care about goals much anymore. i'm going to play when i want to, hopefully play well at that. i'm not going to set any $ or hand goals anymore, just going to make sure i play and stay focused/on point. i'm far from the richest poker player in the world but hopefully i'll be happy (or at least be happier than i am now when losing). forcing myself to play is not a good idea for alot of reasons, and i envy those who love this game and can play for hours.

anyways, enough bitching. gay. summer is here, think i'm going to go outside w/ dog and bro. i need to figure out a place/schedule to workout more. i have a few days until i go to scuba in kearny, NE/look for a house for next year in lincoln.

also, saw some movies recently...transformers, wasn't bad, action/popcorn flick. whatever...far from like an actual 'good' movie, but it was entertaining and it accomplished its goal (at least for me). people who get so upset about the quality of retarded movies are hilarious. just take it for what it is and know that you're going into a pretty shitty movie.

i also saw star trek. pretty good, worth a watch. i recommend it. you dont need to be really knowledgeable about any previous ST stuff, you can go into this movie fresh. it's enjoyable, popcorn flick movie.

also picked up 3 books...i still have a few to finish (currently reading 'the dice man', a pretty humorous book about a psychiatrist creating his own religion based off the roll of a dice...and the hobbit (though im near done w/ that)). i picked up a stupid action/thriller/retarded book 'Loch' for my trip to seattle (those page turners are always the best for trips), east of eden, and a college football book. i'm eagerily awaiting the new college football mags coming out, can't wait for next season.

i think UF has a decent shot to repeat. schedule is easy, a ton of talent returning (and coming in). the future is bright and i think we'll be just fine once tebow leaves. still deciding which games i'm going to (maybe @ UK/ UTenn/ maaaaybe FSU, we'll see).

FRREEEEEEEEEEEEDOM/thoughts

school is fuckin out, i'm loving it. here is what i did to my jazz book after the class is done-


the sick part is that i'm not even sure if i passed yet. i'm pretty confident that i did but no guarantees...how hilarious would it be if i had to both retake the class as well as rebuy the book? i guess i'd have another 10 minutes of entertainment.

it feels fuckin good to be done. no more school, at least for another month, when i have to take queer spanish. i'm not positive how that's going to work out either.

meeting w/ my lame adviser was pretty lol at first. the conversation went something like this-

"hi"
"hi"
"so what classes are we looking at for next semester?"
"some easy ones."
"well, there are a few courses here that look difficult. you're going to have to take some upper level arts, usually people take jazz."
"sounds gay. i don't do school well."
"well what do you do then?"
"wtf do you mean by that?"
"what do you do? if you don't study..."
"i like to go to the gym and play video games, hang w/ friends, etc"
"oh, so thats it."
"well i also like to play poker"
"oh...(eyes slant down, AZN DEGEN flashes in her mind)"
"also, i can get a D in my geo and jazz classes right? i just need the credit."
(eyebrows go up, she says nothing)..."would it kill you to just try for one semester?"
"um...yes" (i walk out)

whatever. she can suck on her 20k job after she has her masters degree somewhere. maybe she finds that job rewarding, i don't know.

anyways, im probably going to get 2 Ds and 2 As. i'll be getting 2 Ds in the easier classes (history of jazz and geology 100) and 2 As in the harder ones (ENG 303: short story and my core history class in which i had to write a 15-20 pager). definitely a person who needs the class to be somewhat interesting (at least to me), or a good professor. next semester i am taking a few gay classes...some education class, a shitty psych (i think) and a sweet one, U.S. military history. my classes are scheduled for the morning so we'll see if i'm able to get up for them. i sortve doubt it and i might have to drop them/find some other times. i still havent figured out my housing for next year either. i'm thinking about living in an area nearby campus.

poker has been going meh. i havent played much this month due to finals and shit. i'm hoping to coach and play more though with finals being done.

i also LOL uploaded my FTP 1/2 hands for shits and giggles. most of these hands occured during the summer , during the worst downer of my life. it also doesnt include -8k at AP lol...what a joke. whatever, shit happens

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still not worse than one of my poker friends, he's getting crushed. i'm also thinking about getting into staking people, we'll see how it goes. i'll be interested to see how it all works, etc.

i'm also taking scuba 2 next semester. i think it includes night scuba diving, which seems like a cool skill to learn. i'm quite excited getting certified later this month. im really excited to do scuba diving, especially around the world.

climbing has been going well. i beat a 5.9 today, a new route at the wall. i don't know how i'm going to climb this summer, i'll just be traveling around. i'm hoping to climb in vegas. as far as omaha, i think i might go down to the university of NE omaha, i hear their wall is quite good. seattle i doubt i'll have any opportunity. i still need to get my own harness/chalk bag/etc. i'm lucky in that my hands don't really sweat while i'm climbing, so i don't need a chalk bag. some of my friends who climb take off in the summers, and it usually takes about a month or so to regain that strength. when i finally get out on my own i'm going to have to figure out a gym to go to.

re-diet and stuff, it's been megashitty lately. i'm pretty out of food for the most part and am just waiting to go home. i still have alot of shit to get rid of before i head out, lots of frozen chicken and such. as far as working out, i have been sortve sluggish the past week. i have a cross book w/ofishstix for gym, we have to go to the gym every day. swimming has been slowed, i havent touched it. i'm almost scared to do it, since it's such a bitch of a workout...but i know i have to do it.

looking forward to the summer. currently wasting my life away at FTOPS, sigh. gl to all.